I remember growing up we used to go to the community swimming pool. Everyone was there during the hot Texas summers trying to cool off.
There were 3 sets of diving boards; low, medium and a high platform. The summer after 6th grade I had decided this would be the summer I would finally join the “cool kids” and jump off the high platform. I was nervous, excited and could not wait. The anticipation and day dreams of this miraculous moment in my life had built up for a couple of months.
Then it happened. School was out. It was the first week of summer and we were headed to the pool.
I eagerly climbed up the ladder to the high platform and it was the tallest ladder I had ever been on in my entire life. My best friend and I walked to the edge of the platform and my knees started shaking. This is what I had been dreaming of. I was here.
Although I was at the same pool, with the many familiar faces – the view from the top platform was strange and a little scary. It was unfamiliar. At that moment, I doubted myself and my new surroundings and I simply said “I can’t do this.” I was too scared to jump. I told myself I couldn’t do this. I doubted myself.
I made the climb of shame back down the ladder. I walked over to my mom and told her I wanted to leave.
Maybe if I had told myself “YES YOU CAN DO THIS!” instead of agreeing with the inner voice that said I couldn’t – I may have made the jump on my first try.
It took me a week to build up the confidence to try jumping again from the high platform. It also took some other people ridiculing me to the point I had to show them that I could.
That afternoon I laughed at myself for being scared but I also told myself I shouldn’t have doubted myself in the first place.
When I started my VA business, I had the same kind of doubts. Everything was familiar but when doubts rose from my inner voice, instead of agreeing and giving up, this time I was kind to myself and encouraged myself that I CAN and WILL do this…and I will do it WELL!
Be kind to yourself. Encourage yourself. You CAN do this! Now JUMP!